Job Hunting

Teenagers need MONEY! We have so many things we think we must do, and our parents really do not have all the money we need. They do so much for me already, and sometimes I feel bad asking them. They don't even know how much I think of this, or how much I really do want to help. Just today alone, we talked about money I need to play volleyball, go to Europe, what I would need for college, a mission trip I want to go on, and getting my nose pierced. Sometimes it gets to the point where their only answer is, "You can't do it all." But you know what? I want to do it all. And today I had the realization that if i pursued God, and prayed about it, He could help me.

I know enough in my faith now that praying is not asking for something to happen. Rather, it is asking God for help to accomplish everything, or give you acceptance when you cannot complete everything, and find comfort in it anyway. This concept is often really hard to grasp.. I often feel like I was taught that prayer was for asking good things to come your way.

So today, I was reading Paradise Lost..it is all about Original sin, and Adam and Eve. I started thinking...Would I be like Eve, and eat the fruit when the devil tempted me, or could I stand up to him, and know that I would not want to be seperated from God...We'd all like to think we could stand up to Sin, but would we?

Consider this scenario...If you were held at gunpoint..like in Columbine..And someone said, "Do you believe in God?" If you knew you would die by saying yes, would you? Yeah, i'd like to think that I would, but if in the end it was between life and death, how would it affect your decisions?

This is where prayer comes..I am making it my goal to start praying more.

Dear Lord, Help me complete the tasks set before me, finishing them all in the spirit of your name. Or accepting it when it is your will for them to go unfinished. Let me act in the way that if someone were to see me, they would say that girl is living her life for God. Let my actions be an inspiration to others. Amen.